about the blogger..insight into me 2005

finally had an 11hour sleep to kick away some flu bugs...no doubt accumulated from being busy every night with volunteering, hitch, mugging, typing reports and bub's birthday dinner. which brings me to wonder what are the things i put myself through and why it doesn't make any sense.

1) thrives on intensity with the occasional and very rare peace and quiet slacking

2) loves his buddies, the longer they are the better, like vintage wine. i'd do anything for them though, lend stuff n laptops, last minute calls for company. so far have only had one unpleasant experience and he got the message.

3)not a simple guy. i thought all along that i revealed my inner self. yet as time passes, there are is so much beneath me that its impossible to 100% reveal myself. i almost envy simple guys, or rather guys who claim to be simple, but i guess that's just who i am.

4) cynical. i'm easily the life of a crowd if i want to and make acquaintances fast. but its too easy to see the bad points of people which leads me to cut them out or remain as hi-bye. i only seek to remain friends with those i see worth it for the long run.for others i just remain flamboyant to maintain contacts. this world is all about contacts.

5) sensitive. yes, sounds stupid for a guy but i'm sensitive. dont show it though but affects me time to time.usually when i'm too tired.

6) a leader. my wish is to be destined for great things and i hope my skills prove its worth. its almost effortless to chair meetings, and has given me a quick mind when the need arises. hence when impromptu presentations arise, their done with aplomb.of course its smoke bombs too sometimes.

7) financially secure. yes, i'm financially VERY secure. not super rich but upper-middle class with plenty of cash to spare. its taken for granted but when take a step back and look, i feel very comforted we never have cash worries at all.

8)finally...i'm in this world to make a difference. i lost my faith in god once but am slowly trying to regain it. the world is so full of hurt, i ain't perfect and my actions sometimes aren't too good. but to quote her "its good to treasure myself" to keep doing good.

guess it makes sense after all.for now...

gavin poured silver metal at 9:27 AM. |

a long delayed post..nah :)

can't remember which sis it was that commented that i hardly updated my blog. maybe it was all three of them sometime or another. haha.

been going through life at a breakneck pace pushing myself. volunteering has been cut down to meetings and delegation, with the emphasis on school. for leisure, occasionally play soccer at nus.

haven''t used my diary for a few weeks now, but now have no choice cuz of the amount of things i have to do. here's what i have to do over my 3-day weekend:

CAE103: Read Frankenstein
CAE104: Phonetic (1,2) Grammar Theme and Rheme
CTE104: Make a bloody Redhill and swordfish with coconut tree
CEM: Research incineration effects, chemical reactions and pollution. long-term solutions.
CEM(ii):research e-waste
CED: Type some "smoke" about research pattern
CAV: Journal & Assignment
CTM: GSP geometry, esp research tesellation

there are two ways, either one makes it 48hrs in a day or i go twice the speed i'm accustomed to.

still....even though i'm busy, i guess im mostly contented. tests and project results going well, plus the nie brudders n sistahs are great. china doll was sick this week n she's going through an ice queen patch again, but guess both of us just kept quiet about it. seems a constant issue i'm being concern n trying to help and she insisting she's an independent gal.*shrugs* taking things in my stride...........for now tis work work work

gavin poured silver metal at 8:16 AM. |