a new beginning

church sermon: love what you do in life, or at least try to find that love.

wenjie: thanks. always appreciate your frank advice and listening ear. i'll tk up tht club rainbow offer. god bless too bro :)

svc: its been 8 years, but thank you for everything.

gavin poured silver metal at 10:14 PM. |

personal musings

once again i flatter to deceive myself. a peaceful existence is being made complicated by my musings and reflections.

recently have had a wave of bottled up emotions just released.

guess god-fearing me does have a fear after all. one tht ive been avoiding since i was 8 yrs old.

lets see how it goes.

ive grown skeptical, cynical, and seeking reassurance for what i've done or am doing.

always in times of need and searching for reassurance i utter to myself the phrase i've said many times since my sji days

i will continue, oh my god, to do all my actions for the love of you.

for me, that's a powerful statement which never fails to bring me peace.

someone told me its the people who make things happen, not the likes of Fare or Kharma. for me i know my actions affect so many people in this world be it good or bad. i juz have to place my trust in the Lord.

now lets see what God has in store for me. some people call it Fate.

its a big world out there. for me i'm in a little corner right now. maybe its for the best though i know its unlikely ever to remain that way.

til tomorrow.

gavin poured silver metal at 12:45 AM. |

one of those quiet moments

finally got my 8-hours worth of sleep. the 1st torturous week is kinda over. its no joke, waking up to 0830 lessons, rushing back in the late evening to catch 40winks(hopefully!), and off to tution again.

so yeah this is the only time i can sit down and put everything aside for a coupla hours. helps that there's a 1630 lesson later so i cant waste d whole day away.

i guess with the busy lifestyle i put myself through, it takes away most of d irritating nuances that ive gone through. i guess onli a few of my close friends know what my ahem "playing" the past few weeks had brought me. glad to say its all at a close now and im lost in the sea of readings and accompanying analysis.

volunteering is also at a nil right now, can't bring myself to get my poontat off for the rare moments its actually resting.

so yeah, i greatly appreciate moments nowadays where i can juz chill & comfortably talk with ppl, lets me reflect and share abt my thoughts and feelings too....:)

its always 2 sides to a coin. one hand i wonder why i put myself through the busy busy life i lead, but on the other hand if it were not so, i seriously don't know what to do.

i'm not planning on living long (no-no not suicidal thoughts no worries!)...because who knows what the next step God has in store for the next step of my life. so for now its the carpe diem motif...make the most of everyday...

my life has always been tumultuous...its what i make of it :P

gavin poured silver metal at 10:37 AM. |

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

gavin poured silver metal at 9:33 PM. |